I’m writing this post for a particular person with a particular reason. She will almost certainly not read this and would be altogether shocked that she provoked such a reaction in me. The context is the Week of Prayer for Christian Unity and my hurt and aching for a reconciliation within Christ’s body, the Church. The place was a chapel in Oxford. My friend had received the Eucharist but she had not been graced with a sense of peace, rather a sense of guilt. Could she, a Roman Catholic, even a lapsed Catholic receive the sacrament in an Anglican chapel?
My response was so weak and so lacking in consideration for her that I would like to try and redeem my own guilt. I simply wanted to say to my friend that she is loved by God. Mother Teresa says all that needs to be said in this prayer. May we all consider it well and pray that God will lead us out of our guilty prisons, that we may follow with child-like abandon:
A Last Prayer
I worry some of you still have not really met Jesus, one-to-one, you and Jesus alone.
We may spend time in chapel, but have you seen with the eyes of your soul how He looks at you with love?
Do you really know the living Jesus – not from books but from being with Him in your heart? Have you heard the loving words He speaks to you?
Ask for the grace, He is longing to give it.
Until you can hear Jesus in the silence of your own heart, you will not be able to hear Him saying “I thirst” in the hearts of the poor.
Never give up this daily intimate contact with Jesus as the real living person – not just the idea.
How can we last even one day without hearing Jesus “I love you?” Impossible. Our souls needs that as much as the body needs to breathe the air. If not, prayer is dead- meditation, only thinking.
Jesus wants you each to hear Him speaking in the silence of your heart. Be careful of all that can block that personal contact with the living Jesus.
The devil may try to use the hurts of life, and sometimes, our own mistakes – to make you feel it is impossible that Jesus really loves you, is really cleaving to you.
This is a danger for all of us. And so sad, because it is completely the opposite of what Jesus is really wanting, waiting to tell you.
Not only that He loves you, but even more – He longs for you.
He misses you when you don’t come close. He thirsts for you.
He loves you always, even when you don’t feel worthy. When not accepted by others, even by yourself sometimes – He is the one who always accepts you. Only believe – you are precious to Him.
Bring all you are suffering to His feet – only open your heart to be loved by Him as you are. He will do the rest.
-Mother Teresa, 1910-1997